Thursday, April 22, 2010

Itty Bitty Living Space

What's it like living inside my head?
Inside my brain,
you sit with your hands around your knees
Tangling yourself up in strings
Pull them gently and I wander
Pull them with anger and I stay put
Ain't it a shame how much time
You waste
Sure, I'll share this space,
Inside my head
But I won't concern myself
When you start fussing around up there
I bet you were trying to tell me something
Knocking on my skull every morning
I heard you
But I also heard you cast a shadow too tall
And I'm only 5 foot 6 on a good day
You must be a lot smaller than I had once thought
I pray it's comfortable up inside my brain
Cause I know myself well enough and I know you
And I know how these things work
And chances are you're not going anywhere

Friday, April 16, 2010

To Me Love You; To You Love Me

Don't say all the time and never say always
If you have to get jealous, try not to show it
Try to understand that getting done up doesn't mean I'm getting done
Try to remember that when I go out, I'll always be coming home
You have to take the good with the bad and I do too
You gotta trust me when I say I'm yours and I will trust you
Keep in mind that a fight isn't an argument and an argument isn't a fight
But both are necessary for us to survive
Know that I won't always like what you have to say
But know that I'll respect you either way
Promise me if you ever feel sad about you and I that you'll speak up and speak your mind
And I'll promise the same because I want you as mine
Above all else, remember how I make you feel late at night
And above all else, we'll do our best to keep up with you and I

Thursday, April 8, 2010

With an E

I hope you know who I am and I hope you know what you lost
I keep playing this scenario over and over again in my head
Where I see you and you see me and we don't say a word
But we speak volumes to each other
You're mistakes pile up and although I'm no saint, you are scum

I feel the bubbles begin to form inside my blood
Heat takes over my body and I don't care how many inches you add up to
I would ruin you if the chance came my way

I feel my skin crawl knowing that you've touched what is mine
The teeth inside my mouth grind back and forth and I can taste hate
I would ruin you if the chance came my way

It makes me sick knowing we've done similar things to hurt a heart so true
It makes me sick being compared to you
I threw up a little bit while I was writing this
It tasted like pride and I swallowed it down
I hope you choke on yours

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

King Dharma

I stopped reading secrets on Sundays
A little too close to home
They poke at my ribs and remind me of things
You know how sensitive the sides of my torso are
I'm far too ticklish for my own good and for you
My body tenses up when you drag your nails
Along the way I giggled

Your ribs surround a concave chest
Inside is a beat up heart that tried its best
Bruised and battered but beating nonetheless
It deserves to start fresh

The last secret I read made me cry
I bet it made you cry too but for different reasons
I wrote my secret down on a piece of fabric stolen from a peaceful place
The irony draped over my shoulders like a robe
And I was already wearing the crown

Monday, April 5, 2010

It's not

I can’t picture you laughing
I can picture a lot of people in my life laughing
But for some reason I can’t see it with you
Barely even a smile comes to mind

When I try, your face turns into someone else’s
Your hair changes color
Your jaw line becomes different
Everything about you transforms into somebody else
A person who is happy and content, with less opinions

When I see you and you smile or laugh
It feels awkward and forced
I thought it was just me
But it’s not...it’s you

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Who Do You Think About

Who do you think about when you listen to songs
Inside your car
Who do you miss when you're hearts showing scars
Inside your car
We should fix what these hands did wrong

Who do you think about when you smoke
All alone it shows
When there's a whole other world at home
All alone it shows
It shows when the weight of the world takes its toll

For such a small town
It feels so big when you're around
We can blame it on the weather
But things are starting to look better
When the clouds all start to clear
I'm here

Who do you think about when you watch your favorite shows
Sitting so still on your own
Who do you think about when no one needs to know
Sitting so still on your own
That's when your eyes start to grow

Who do you think about when you're underneath your sheets
When the day gets too heavy
Who do you think about when you really feel the need
When the day gets too heavy
That's when I finally feel the heat

For such a small town
It feels so big when you're around
We can blame it on the weather
But things are starting to look better
When the clouds all start to clear
I'm here

For such a small town
It feels so big when you're around
We can blame it on the weather
But things are starting to look better
When the clouds all start to clear
I'll be here